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27. června 2011 v 23:27 | Haily |  Überlegung
Dear whoever you are,

I´m going to tell you one of my secrets. Well, Im tired of solving problems of the others, I´m too young for seeing all the ugly sides of the world and sometimes I feel so bad because of the others and it´s a bit absurd. My dreams, they are starting to be empty, day by day, night by night. I ruined them by myself because a wanted to be mature, silly me. But yeah, I can´t lie to myself, I still like it - listening to people, helping them. Why? Because by solving the problems of the others I totally forget about my own ones, and that is.. priceles. My troubles and problems are meaningles, yes, they are, but they are still problems, you know.. and it´s amazing to be troublefree. You may think I´m light-hearted, but it´s really hard to ignore your own feelings sometimes. But the price is awesome - instant happiness. Wait, you know what? Yes, I´m really light-hearted, but I work for it.

Oh, so what if you can see the darkest side of me?

Really sorry for being honest. Sorry for being kind. Sorry for not being your mommy. Sorry for loving the Beatles. Sorry for being in love with Paul and Moonie. Sorry for being careless. Sorry for not being helpful. Sorry for being silly and stupid. Sorry for being..

You know, sometimes I just cry and cry and cry and I can´t stop, because it´s so much easier to cry because of John Lennon, Paul McCartney and Keith Moon, than because of your own shitty mood. And the funny fact? This Beatles and Moonie thingy is so much more painful to me than the rest of the other dizzies I have.

I am not depressed, I can almost say - I have never been. You know, you have to move on. It´s not hard, if you try. I hope you do not get bored. I just needed someone to listen to my thoughts. But do not forget, everything typed here is our little secret, okay?

Kisses.

PS: My English sucks and the text is a bit pointless and nonsensical, I am sorry.
 
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1 Lala◄► Lala◄► | Web | 27. června 2011 v 23:34 | Reagovat

Pěkný dess

2 Rowan Rowan | Web | 27. června 2011 v 23:42 | Reagovat

Whenever you need it, I'm here to listen. *hug*

3 Temi Temi | 28. června 2011 v 8:50 | Reagovat

Don't worry, you are not alone n_n and don't be sorry! It's okay. And who doesn't understand, it's their problem anyway. C=

4 Lass Lass | Web | 28. června 2011 v 13:37 | Reagovat

Your letter here is not pointless at all and you know it. Right now I should probably shut up, but I just feel like writing something longer than two or three words "It's gonna be okay again" or something (well, those aren't actually three words, but who gives a flying knife), even if in the end it's probably going to sound pointless and off topic. Pretend to take it as my own 'little' letter to you. ;)

Sometimes we all need to talk to somebody. Anybody. Tell them our stories/secrets/thoughts. Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't. I hope it did in this case. At least a bit.

We all, the readers, the listeners, are here to share your secret and thoughts with you. Not telling anyone, unless you tell us to do. You know what? It's what friends are for.

Also, you cannot carry the weight of other people's problems. You are who you are! You need to breathe too. You must live your dreams. Not just dream them. Your life is NOW, not later.

Don't be sorry. Don't be sorry for anything. Don't push your true yourself away. Don't hide it behind some kind of mask.

"Jeeez, I would love to have your problems..." that's exactly the sentence I hate. We all have problems. Some of them are bigger, some of them may be smaller. However, we have to try and solve them. Not just push them away pretending they're not here.

Gah. As I said. Me and my pointless babbling (and my attempt to speak English :'D). In a couple of words - We're here listening, darling. You're not alone. Keep holding on. <3

5 akira akira | 29. června 2011 v 11:57 | Reagovat

... Have you ever noticed how small children say so often, „When I'll be older...“
... While elders remember with nostalgic eyes, „When I was little...“

Haily, don't hesitate to be a child. The time of your youth is something that noone will return to you once it passes, I see it myself. You know, I never had childhood dreams. Long time ago, I just took a careless plunge into the very underworld, cold and grey, where I kept on staying for too many years. I can feel it now, the holes in my mind that had been carved, parts of my brain that had been consumed by emptiness.

You know what? Sometimes when I see young people, cheerful and full of life, I just can't help myself to smile. Because it just fascinates me, these youthful hopes and dreams. Childhood and youth is indeed something that should be remembered with a smile and pleasant feelings. So don't let your dreams to be ever taken away from you.

You care for your friends and you try to help them as much as you can and I'm very glad to see that you do. But at these times when you help others, always remember that you can rely on them as well. Everyone needs to take a rest every once in a while. Don't be afraid to close your eyes at the edge of a cliff. We won't let you fall.

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